I am posting again today because I felt I needed to. I had mentioned in my last blog that I was trying to convey the emotions of being a mother to a special needs child. I found a blog today that sums up how one feels. It is probably one of the best written blog posts I have read in a long time.
I normally go to this moms site for my daily dose of uncontrollable laughter. She sometimes has a dirty mouth, holds nothing back, and blogs about things most of us just dream of discussing. Yet today I was in tears because I related to most every word she spoke. I have not had to deal with the death of a child though, and I pray I never will. She has dealt with a child with disabilities, and the loss of children. It seems there should be a limit to what people are given to handle. I do understand though about feeling like death is waiting at your back door. I have lost my mother, my boyfriend, my grandparents that raised me, friends, family, etc. I have seen more death than I want to, and I feel that he lurks around the corner. I have an unhealthy fear that something will happen to those I love. A fear I keep controlled, but it's still there.
Anyway, please stop by Tani's blog today, and read her eloquent posting. Her words are laced with emotion, and she speaks of so much I relate to..........even how other siblings are affected. I am still learning about Tanis, and trying to catch up on the history, but so far...... her life has touched me.