Jude did not sleep well again last night, and therefore Mike and I didn't either. Jude actually woke up with two different seizures, which was so disappointing because he barely had any yesterday during the day. So Mike and I are both fighting to stay awake today, but I think Mike is a little more tired than I am. He is coming up to my office at eleven so I will get to see both him and the baby today.
I had noticed yesterday when I got home that Jude looked a little pale. When I went to change his diaper his hands and feet were noticeably white....and very cold. I began to panic a little thinking maybe he had pneumonia and that his oxygen level was depleted. Although, I searched his lips and didn't see any signs of blue. So I relaxed some and put him in a very warm pair of pajamas, and then wrapped him up in a blanket to hold him. Soon he began to pink up, and he fell fast asleep. I know babies with his issues can have temperature control problems because their brain cannot regulate their body. Also, that medication can cause blood flow problems. Although, it could just be Jude is cold natured...my sister has cold hands. In other words it sucks because you never know what constitutes an emergency, so you really just have to work from gut instinct. Another thing I noticed last night is Jude has a new twitch where his arms go to the right and so do his eyes. I told Mike I think it's another form of a seizure, but he believes it's just muscle spasms. He said the seizures can break down muscle control within the body. I didn't know that part, and I am learning more each day. Although, I think the point stands that I am seeing more issues with Jude, and I only hope he can overcome them. I forgot to mention that I had Jude upstairs at one point talking to him, and he was smiling again. He then started "talking" and it was very cute. Mike said "You can always get him to talk so much".
Anyway, I dreamt again last night of being on a warm beach (in a bikini body) relaxing by the ocean....then I woke up (darnit)! It could be because we had the space heater in our room last night so it was very nice and toasty. It could be because I wanted to escape, or it could be because I saw a corona commercial....who knows. I also had a dream that Emily's dad was ill.....which was scary.
Today is our company Christmas party which is always nice. I work in a very small office so we are all more like family. Every year we go to Saltgrass, and have lunch for about two hours while we chit chat. We give our boss his gift, and he gives us our Christmas bonus.....which will be well used this year!
I will write more later.