Saturday, November 6, 2010

big mess up

Well I messed up again. Jude came home from the hospital with his same medications and prescriptions. Only difference is his Felbatol is now marked 2ml three times a day on the bottle, but it's suppose to be 2,2,1. I messed up, and I have been giving him the wording on the bottle at night. I thought we had talked about increasing the dosage, but I misunderstood. Mike is pretty angry with me, and who could blame him.

He made the comment that I might be better at working than caring for Jude. It hurt, but maybe he is right. I don't need empathy, I just wanted to admit my mistake.

5 comments:

Rita said...

A mistake is just that a mistake. I know an important one but still none of us are perfect. You have never been a caregiver before. You have not been trained. No one else checked the meds before you to see if they were being given right.

I was a caregiver for a while to a critical care person. I made a mistake from time to time. I was thrown into something without training. My heart was in the right place but I was fearful about what I was doing. Forgive yourself and walk on. Please....

MEME said...

JUDE IS LUCKY TO HAVE YOU AS HIS MOTHER! SO MANY WOULD HAVE CHOSEN TO DO AWAY WITH HIM BUT YOU GAVE HIM LIFE AND IF YOU SCREW UP ONCE IN AWHILE JUST REMEMBER YOUR JUST HUMAN BUT JUDE IS A LUCKY LITTLE HUMAN TO HAVE YOU AND MIKE AND HIS SISTER AND IF HE COULD HE WOULD TELL YOU THAT!

Lori said...

It is so hard to be a caregiver, especially for your own child. Emotions run high. You cannot be expected to remember every little detail of every conversation. That is why they write the dosages on the bottles. I made many mistakes too while caring for Cam. They were well intentioned and didn't do any harm. Be easy on yourself.

Lori

jocalyn said...

um...im the one who talks to the dr.'s about every single medication dose kendalls on. i repeat it over and over to each new nurse or dr in the er...i have it written down in the diaper bag, the side of the fridge, and the counter in the kitchen. i am responsible for medication in the morning and night....and i've made mistakes. (so has my husband!) do not be hard on yourself. it happens! the important thing is you caught it. move on!

Anonymous said...

Jenn you are human...we make mistakes....Jude is lucky to have you as his mom!