I am so tired I cannot function anymore. I am irritable, I am stressed, and I need some sleep, a FULL nights sleep. I know a lot of people are used to staying up all night, but I am not. When I don't sleep my whole world falls apart. I don't function well at all, and when you have to go to work you cannot just "get some sleep". Plus, I feel like I cannot take off work, so it's an unpleasant cycle I guess. I am miserable, and I know it's hard for other people to understand. I HAVE to work, I have no choice, and I feel like my health and my kids sometimes suffer. I have stated I like my job, but being torn between home, and work sometimes adds a lot of stress.
Last night after I got home I had informed everyone that Jude had take 16 ounces. I was sitting down, and knew it was nearing time for his medication so I made a little pedialyte. I gave him a few drops, and he seemed to like it. Then we were sitting there, and Jude threw up what looked like the entire 16 ounces he drank prior in a volcano like method. Mike was in the shower, I went running in with Jude in tow covered in Pediasure, and I was too. It was all over the couch too, but by the time I came back out Emily had already cleaned it up for me. So then Mike started screaming at me that he didn't need the pedialyte, and I tried to explain I wasn't trying to give him any when he threw up. Plus, that amount of food coming up means it had just been sitting in Jude's stomach that entire time, and was coming up regardless. So now we are at each other's throats. I wish we could get the nurse to come at night so we can just sleep, I think it would do us good.
Jude whimpered, cried, and squirmed the majority of the night. We have tried Motrin, his meds, his acid reflux meds, etc etc. At one point I mentioned to Mike I thought Jude might be hungry, so he got up to feed him, and shut my door. I either slept so hard the time he was gone, or Jude wouldn't eat because he was back in what seemed like two minutes. Jude's nurse comes again today, but only for four hours. I am glad she is there to watch him.