Tonight Jude took his first sedative prior to going to bed. We strapped his blood oxygen meter on because it made us feel better. So far he is holding steady at 96/114.
When I gave him the medication he seemed to whimper as his eyes fluttered and I felt terrible. I hate pain medication or any narcotics. Many people enjoy them.........but I don't. I hate feeling out of control ....and I wondered if he felt the same way. Soon he was asleep with a half smirk on his face so I am sure he is happy, but it still made me a bit sad tonight.