Thursday, June 9, 2011

A break

I am going to take a couple of weeks off from blogging. I am just not in a good place right now with negative people around me and other situations. So rather than upsetting people and dealing with the unwanted stress of an arguement I have decided to take a few weeks to simmer down. I am going to spend time with my family, re-evaluate my life, and figure out who and what is important. I feel like a lot of people will just truly never know what life is about and I just need to distance myself from that. They say the most stupid things and I need to personally realize that I cannot expect everyone to be "up to my expectations".  I cannot expect someone to react the way I would to a situation, that's just not fair.  Something I have been preaching to someone else, but not listening to my own statements. 

Vague posts like this one normally aggravate me when they are posted from others, but I felt like I needed to provide an explanation for my upcoming absence. So let's just call it a journey of self exploration and a discovery of true friendship.

I will leave you with a funny statement from Mike. Last night I was in tears explaining how I was feeling to Mike, he smiled and hugged me saying

Mike "Aw wet tears......honey you are no longer Snow White anymore you are just crazy."
I said "Crazy??"
Mike "Yes but in a good way. You are just overwhelmed and tired of it all and that's understandable so for once you aren't just being over nice you are saying I need a break... and that's okay."

Gotta love him. I will be back soon.


Rita said...

You are so right on! I lost a best best friend because she could not understand my response to a very very difficult time. Something like you that very few people go through. I learned to keep somewhat to myself for a while. Not so much as to get depressed but to be able to get the work done and rest without hearing the voices in my head saying I was wrong about this or that. Get as much rest as you can and do simple little things for yourself like a coffee out, read your favorite magazine. All the things that you feel there is no longer time for. You need them. Kiss Jude for me. I follow your blog. Emily is a dear girl, and what a husband to say just the right thing at the right time. :)

Shannon said...

I completely understand. I was very recently publicly attacked by my brother of all people who had, up until that moment, feigned nothing but support for me and my family. I felt anger for a brief moment, then just relief that I would no longer have to deal with his toxic behavior. Sometimes a break is good. Re-evaluate, decide who and what is important and "clean" the toxins out of your life. Your true friends and loved ones will always be there when you return. :)

sarah said...

it is hard when people just don't *get* what you are going through. Take time to regroup, but make sure if anything major happens with Jude, you let us know!

A Girl Named Me said...

I know I don't comment often, but yours is one of the few blogs that I read every day.

It's not all glitz and glamor. And your spelling isn't always perfect. And sometimes you fight with your husband. And your life isn't always unicorns and butterflies. But it's real.

And sometimes, keeping it real means taking a break when all of the everythings are just too much.

Be well. I'll be thinking of you.


jocalyn said...

Amen...I'm taking a sabbatical from my blog...and life right now too. Good luck with everything.

Kim C. said...

I'm sorry you are going through such a difficult time right now, but that happens to everyone at one time or another in life. We, as special moms, I believe, are sometimes just a little more vulnerable. It takes alot of strength to be who we are. But, it is so worth it. I am so much stronger today than I was before Ashley came into my life. I can also honestly say, my family members are also stronger and better people because of her. Look at your beautiful daughter and the difference she has already made in so many children's lives. I love your blog, as I have often said. Take care, get some rest. I will continue to pray for you and your beautiful family. God bless. Kim C.