Someone posted this on their Facebook and I was very touched. It's a mothers day letter for a special needs mom. It reads as follows.
Even without my words, you always know what I need.
When I am hurting or afraid, frustrated or weary, you gather me home into the safety of your arms.
You know what makes me smile and fills my face with light.
You make me happy when you sing my favorite song and sweep the softness of my favorite blanket across the curve of my cheek. And when you take me for walks and I feel the warmth of the sun, the cool breeze brushing by my skin.
You ignore the words of others telling you what I cannot do, and then fill the hours of every day telling me what I can.
Every day, you see other kids doing more, yet you celebrate me. Pushing away sadness, you focus on the hope of my future. You let my simple, small steps lead us forward.
Never standing still, always in motion, you move before me. Your planning, protective and positive, prepares me for success -- meeting new people and new everyday challenges.
... and Mom, in case I ever go before I can whisper my words of thanks, or wrap my arms around you, know what I know: That before you someday soothe me into heaven's sleep, with you, I live the fullest life and I see the world through your understanding eyes. With your gentle touch, you fill my life to overflowing with the greatest kind of love." Credit to Suzanne Perryman - Blogger at Specialneedsmom.com
Yep I cried. I do know what makes Jude laugh. I watch his face fill with light when I kiss him, hug him, and say 1-2-threeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! Every night I gather Jude up and we snuggle on the couch. He is so big now and I am not small that we have personally created a sunken spot where we sit. I hold him while we watch TV and every so often I give him kisses on his forehead and in return I get a great big smile. He has this perfect innocence about him and pure love that surrounds his every move. I accept Jude's future for what it is and I know his limitations. I don't look at him as "disabled" I just look at him as Jude. He is 100% perfect the way.
Along with our journey Nurse Charlotte is always there. She is Jude's second mom taking him on walks, giving him hugs, and taking great care of him while I work. She is like his momager and deserves to share in this letter.