Jude had a seizure tonight which is such a let down. I think he felt he disappointed us in some way, but I reassured him he didn't. During the seizure his arm would fly forward, and on it's way back his hand would slowly graze my face, and he would flicker a slight smile. I cried because I felt we lost something we treasured so much in having seizure free moments, and was grateful he wasn't yelping. His eyes would vibrate, his arms would raise, and he would let out a puff of air with each infantile spasm. It lasted approximately 16 long minutes.
Before this happened I was watching my most favorite movie ever....Love Actually. I am a lover of wonderful movie quotes, and this one contains a plethora to choose from. If you have not seen this movie please take time to enjoy this amazing story......or rather stories.
My favorite line is the one at the very beginning:
The prime minister says " Whenever I get gloomy with the state of the world, I think about the arrivals gate at Heathrow Airport. General opinion's starting to make out that we live in a world of hatred and greed, but I don't see that. It seems to me that love is everywhere. Often, it's not particularly dignified or newsworthy, but it's always there - fathers and sons, mothers and daughters, husbands and wives, boyfriends, girlfriends, old friends. When the planes hit the Twin Towers, as far as I know, none of the phone calls from the people on board were messages of hate or revenge - they were all messages of love. If you look for it, I've got a sneaking suspicion... love actually is all around. " This goes along with my post earlier in the week that people truly have good hearts.
How about another of the movie's quote, "Life is full of interruptions and complications", isn't that the truth? Plus you have to love Natalie who curses through the entire movie. I think she was my favorite character.
Anyway, it was a sad night with a good movie, and that made things a little better. I have learned to feel the pain, help Jude through his pain, and cling to the things that bring us happiness.
Jude is sleeping now......I will update more tomorrow